5/15/12
i hate eh and i hate everything here and i wanna leave. i wanna get out and never ever ever come back. like im considering getting in my car right now and taking my life savings and just leaving. idk where the fuck id go. but i cant stand it here. i rly cant. im so over it. im so over the people here and living in this stupid house and in this stupid bullshit of a town. i hate it. i dont even know what to do. im going crazy. im actually going crazy tonight bc im so fucking upset about this. and i dont even know. i cant even think straight ive been shaking for an hour and i cant stop crying and i just dont know what i can do or anything. i hate school. i dont want to go back. but i cant stay here. im done. im so fucking done but everything i fucking want isnt going to happen cause its so unrealistic and i cant take it anymore.
5/2/12
Dear Mia.
He wants to be exclusive, and that is important. It means that he cares enough about you, and he doesn’t wanna lose you. You matter to him. Don’t take him for granted, cause you’ll regret it. He may seem like he doesn’t care sometimes, but he does. Mia he cares about you and loves you. He tells you he loves you before you have to say that. You’re not used to that, and I bet it feels amazing. Don’t let him go. Do everything in your power to keep him. August will come fast, and you’ll be back in his arms. Then, hopefully, he will want you to be his girlfriend for real. Just remember, don’t do anything stupid. You need someone like this in your life. Someone who wants to make you feel beautiful. That’s a good feeling. That’s something you shouldn’t try to get rid of. You’ll be happy with him as long as you don’t get too attached. You’re his, and he’s yours. and thats exactly what you need. Remember Mia, it’ll be okay. What’s meant to be will work out perfectly. Just trust it
Love, Mia
5/1/12
Dear Mia
You only have 2 days left of your freshman year of high school. You can do it. You just need to breathe. Don’t let anyone get to you. They aren’t worth it. No one is worth it. You have to focus on yourself and realize that you need to do what’s best for you, and not for everyone else. People are going to walk in and out of your life, and you may not like which people choose to leave, or which choose to stay. One thing you have to remember, though is that you’re going to make it. You’re going to become a wonderful, happy person, and that is what you deserve. Someone out there will actually make you feel like you’re a princess. And Mia, guess what? You are. You deserve someone who is going to tell you how pretty you are, and how you don’t need to change. You’re perfect. You don’t need to lose weight. If you embrace who you are, and love everything you are, someone else will appreciate that, and feel the exact same way. All the stress that’s building up right now is supposed to be there. You’re supposed to be stressed right now. That’s what happens in college. It may not be exactly what you want, but you have to take it as it comes. I promise it gets better. You don’t need a boy to make you happy. You don’t. I promise. You can’t rely on the feeling that someone else thinks you’re amazing. You need to feel that inside of yourself before you let someone else in. And Mia, there’s one thing I’m going to advise you to do. Don’t look for love, or for happiness. Let it come to you. If you stopped looking so hard, you’d realize that you’re not supposed to spend your time looking for it. Let everything fall into place. You’ll benefit from that. I promise.
Love Always, Mia.
